Sunday, January 1, 2012

Resolutions and Regrets

Don't they go together?  You make resolutions.  You don't follow through, then you get regrets.

I have a lot of regret in my life.  Things I should have done.  Things I didn't do.  Things I wish I could redo so it would turn out better.  Things that should have been left unsaid.

Through two very long car rides, I had a lot to think about.  Mainly I though about how I wished that I could go back to certain moments of time, to spend time with people as they were back then.  I miss hanging out with Ray and Justine, their compassion and caring... before everyone's personal lives exploded and things got strange.  I miss Chris and Kacy, how caring and supportive they were before my divorce, before they fell off the face of the planet.  I miss Nick, who was my rock, before our lives took us in different directions.

There are also people that I wish we could send back in time, knowing what they know now. Heather has a new resolve that is truly impressive.  I now wish she had it in High School.  I wish that I had heard what people said to me before my marriage (Heather, Dawn and Chelsey).

But, in the end, I can't live in the past.  I can look back on these memories fondly.  I can't beat myself up about what might have been, or what I should have done.

Like they say in Meet the Robinsons:  "Keep Moving Forward."

I'm going to keep moving forward, right to bed.

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