After four years in education, being told (sometimes multiple times a day) that I'm a failure, has had a few interesting side effects.
I realized yesterday that I'm afraid to have another permanent job. I interviewed for a position yesterday. It was a demanding position, multiple job descriptions, lots of responsibility. On the way home, I almost panicked. I don't want this job. I can't handle all of that responsibility. I'll be a failure again!
I don't know how to overcome this... but I have to. I can't spend my life second guessing myself, afraid of failing.