A friend contacted me today. The ex contacted her yesterday, talking about his new girlfriend. I love the fact that he's moved on. But something she said stuck with me. She was disappointed.
Disappointed that we didn't try. That he wouldn't change. I'm disappointed that I did change, that I gave up trying.
I am a little disappointed in myself for how it all went down. I should have tried to talk more. I shouldn't have just up an left. That was unfair of me.
I think, in the end I was staying because of money. Which is never a reason to stay.
Now, to stop feeling sorry for myself, stop letting memories of the past make me feel ill. I have interviews this week. Time to prepare.